It's now been two weeks, fourteen days, since I began this journey. Yes, there have been times when I have gone outside of my home. However, they have not resulted in any contact with another human being. Even for an introvert this is getting to be really old and hard. I find myself just wanting to talk to someone in person. From what it sounds that will not happen for another month. Can I do this? Yes I can. Will it be hard? Yes it will. I could resort to doing nothing but sitting on my computer all day. I confess that is pretty much what I have done today. Is that the healthy thing to do? NO, it is not. I admit to having to deal with depression though-out my life. This is my challenge: To keep from descending into that dark place. I can do this. In order to do it though I do need to allow myself days like today. Days where I have accomplished nothing of purpose. Well that's not totally true, I did deliver to a friend some card stock so she could make some cards to thank and encourage others. I need to remember small things count.
No pictures to post here today. Tomorrow will be another day. I will work to deal with my demons that want me to just give up and sit out. God willing I will learn how not to be so hard on myself. God willing I will learn and accept living totally on my own, having no contact with anyone other than by phone or internet. To anyone who just might be reading this that has another in their home: No matter how difficult it may be at times be thankful for the human contact you do have. TV, the telephone, and Facebook are my limited contact with others.
Enough, time for me to move on. I am getting maudlin, and I do not need that right now. I'm going to read my book, which ironically is now dealing with emotions surrounding September 11, 2001.
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